I have been linked to, so I suppose I must post something now. Nothing like a little pressure to get things going. So here we are. Or here we go. Or something. Yes!
I've decided to write a book. Or to make an attempt at it, anyway. I have a very basic outline done, though I am still unsure as to what direction I am going to take it in. I guess I am just trying to make sense of things by getting it all down on paper, and hopefully having a basic structure will help. Fingers crossed, anyway.
I just feel as if I'm at a crossroads. I've felt this way for a while now, and because I don't want to tear a live chicken apart at midnight, I've done nothing about it. Like Alice tumbling down the rabbit hole, there is no time, no matter, no nothing to make any sense of anything. I'm just falling. Waiting for that sick thud when I hit the bottom - that smoosh that signifies the end is finally here. So very familiar.
The thing is, I don't want the smoosh this time. Why does it always have to end that way? What is it going to take for me to just put my hands out and stop myself from falling? I have tried so hard to find that resolve within myself, looked so long for it, and nothing. Nada. I'm afraid it's not there...
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awww I'm sorry for pressuring you... but I got a chance to write another comment on your blog!!
i just ate another banana... it was delicious :D
I don't want you to smoosh... cause you're too lovely unsmooshed, and you should stay that way...
you are a banana eating machine. You know what? I can't bloody stand the things. BLECH! Dunno why... I think it's cause my grandfather used to keep them until they were BLACK AS COAL and make us eat them lol.
You are cuteness personified you know. I am trying my best to stay unsmooshed but it's haaaaaard. I have to grow some balls. You have balls - how do you grow em? Lots of water and love? LOL
teehee silly Lavy :) You'll have to ask my mummy and daddy, they grew them for me. But I think a big part of it is deciding not to let other people make you feel bad - they don't have any right to do so. That's a big part of why I am like I am now.
and yes, I never really like bananas - especially when they're too ripe, make me gag. But I LOVE ladyfinger bananas, they don't taste so banana-y. Unfortunately I can't find them here, but banana's are so cheap, and i need a cheap way to get vitamins etc. So i try to have a banana a day. Plus the kyukyu sells them when they're still a bit green, so they don't taste too banana-y.
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